Life update, being a teenager..

So tired, but for some reason I feel ready to write something. About what you may think.. I don't know yet. What an intro to this "hey, I'm still alive although I've haven't shown the slightest sign of life since February" post... Shame on me.
Hope you're well, you, reading this. Has your life been busy too? What have you been up too? Have you experienced anything life changing since February?
I, sure have lived moments I won't forget. Not because they were in any way extraordinary but because it's been such a different year for me.  Change is so good from time to time. I wonder what my ninety year old self (hey let's be optimistic,eh?) will still remember from this year. I've helped myself by writing a diary. 365 pages of gossip about my 18 year old life. Boring for some, entertaining for me. After spending a year socialising at work with adults who seemed to have their life together, I'm not going to lie, I'm quite looking forward to being surrounded by 18-20 years olds who get that lifestyle of  " wasting time, being a lazy human slug on week-ends, watching crappy TV, eating junk food"  I live, and love... Or maybe that's just me. (I think) that's the life at my age. Except next year I'll get to partyyyy more, which tops things off perfectly!
You know that saying "Oh teenage years are the best years of your life?". Bullshit. Excuse my rudeness.. I remember being 16, hearing that and thinking "Are you kidding me? Does that mean the rest of my life will be even worse? Nooooooo". Although, looking back, things weren't as bad as I thought, when you're a teenager everything feels like the end the world. Teenage years were in my case anyway, the hardest, worst years of my (well..kind of short) life. Only now (with 2 years left of being a teenager) is it starting to get really good. Teenage years are confusing and frustrating because you don't know what you want, who you are and are expected to act like an adult. You make mistakes. You find out stuff. You see things from a different perspective. You cry at your deadlines and workload. You cry over stupid fights. Also, hormones...enough said. You feel insecure about everything and at the same you're trying to keep it all together. But only now am I starting to realise that all those nights worrying about every piece of existence were quite understandable. I'll have more of these life crisis, I guess, but I can now truly believe that they aren't permanent and life can be pretty damn good, in between :)
Teenage years are also a time when people expect you to know what you want to do with your life, what job career path you'd like to take etc. It's nice and scary at the same time to think that it is now you can show people what you're capable of. Your own attitude to work will make such a difference. A quote I'll keep reminding myself of is "The harder you work, the luckier you get".

Whether you've got a job or you're studying; at work, if your show full commitment and a hard working attitude, it most certainly will make you look good and more trust worthy and more opportunities will line up for you. If on the other hand, you're studying, you're then working on some job you would like to do in the future... whatever it may be, the more you work, the more choice you'll have. I still have a lot to do myself. Easier said than done, of course. But I'll be studying hard for the next three years so as to have that freedom of choice. So if older me is reading this again, CHOP CHOP work that butt off :)
On that note, I will let you think of what you'd like to do with your future.


Also, as it's still exam time for some people, I hope that's been a bit motivational :)

Thanks for stopping by xx

                                       
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